taken from azizulaszemi.blogspot.com
well, perkara yg berlaku semalam still tak selesai lagi...entahla, aku pun tak pasti samada aku tgh mengharapkan perkara yg betul atau tak...
when i read the birthday mesej that he gave me yesterday, hati aku memang touching...well, far from what i know, he really want to be part of my life(i mean as a friend), and because of that, aku sent mesej say sorry to him.but he didn't reply. reason? i don't know...aku betul2 tak berani nak jumpa dia berdepan especially bila dia memandang ke arah lain bila aku tengok dia petang tadi...
as for me, aku ada terfikir gak kenapa aku mesti nak mintak maaf selepas apa yg aku buat kat dia tengah malam semalam...?what the changes that can be made if both of us become friend again? to say the truth...NOTHING...nothing gonna change and words just become a word again.nothing will happen after that..
for me, a friend is someone that can share his time with me even he always hanging around with his group.like Hafifi always do when he's here.he have his own group but still he invited me to join his group and let me know friends that he made in his group.he always have time for me even though he been busy his other friend too...
i wondering why my new friend never been act like that.he said he want to be friend with me and those word become words only because he only have time with his own group only.so, what am i for?a monument or what?
kalau orang tanya apa perasaan aku sekarang nie, the truth is i feel very guilty to him.i even had bad dream about him this evening for the first time...but nothing i can do now...really.
seorang kenalan aku cakap, bila birthday kita disambut dengan kawan walaupun disambah dgn air kotor and dibaling telur, tapi tulah caranya kita nak appreciate kawan yg berkawan dgn kita selama nie.
aku...?hahaha..i've been trying to run away for many years from involving with that.and the truth memang takde sape yg sambut birthday aku pun selama ni.just tahun ni a little bit different since i have a new good friend and a senior by my side.
well, bila birthday aku tak disambut di samping kawan2, is that mean i dont have any friend?haha...actually i never had friend since start become a university student and i actually had been bare with that situation.
had friend or not, i still had to go on with my life.tapi kadang2 aku jealous gak dengan budak2 lain, especially roommate aku.diaorang ada kawan tapi kadang2 aku pun tak tahu dia berkawan untuk apa since bila dia ada masalah dia tak pernah pun cari kawan yg selalu lepak dengan dia...what a waste to be in situation like that, right?
so, right now...i just try go on with my life and hopefully this cloudy will go away as quick as it can..;)
